My vision board was covered in dreams I didn’t believe in.
My heart also longed to make a difference. Sentimental Christmas movies and assigned readings taught me that a lot of people had broken hearts. Being human meant being susceptible to things like cancer, poverty, and injustice. I found a few volunteer opportunities nearby, but... I was “too young” to drive that far. What could a kid do anyways?
These things were definitely the desires of my soul, but “too young” was the doubt that prevented me from even approximating these goals.
“Too young” is a thief.
White, sunny beaches and European castles decorated my fantasies and I definitely wanted to explore the world. Travel, though, cost money and I felt too young to leave the country alone. Plus, few jobs gave fourteen year olds a chance. After a couple failed searches, I resigned to a state of pitiful hopelessness. Maybe one day (when I was older) I’d be able to see the world.